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Sometimes I sit and wonder
Occasionally I ask ‘WHY’
Why do I even EXIST
Why does my family make me feel like I want to die?
I replay that damned phone call
Over and over in my head
So much hurt lay in the ruins
So many truths left unsaid
She told me it meant NOTHING
(She was speaking of my poetry….)
Said my life amounted to NOTHING
“But GRANDMA”, I pleaded, “my poetry MEANS something to ME…”
“My poetry is not just a ‘hobby’
“It is my way of life
Writing is how I deal
With all the joys AND the strife” 
Grandma ignored my very words and asked:
“Why do you feel like you have to WRITE?!?
“What could be SO horrible?”
Silently I admitted defeat, trying not to cry
“Forget it Grandma,” I answered
As I wipe the silent tears away
I knew I couldn’t change her mind 
There was nothing more I could say
I gave her some ‘off-the-wall’ excuse
ANYTHING to get her off the phone
My soul felt BETRAYED…. CRUSHED
All I knew is I had to be alone

I let the tears roll down my cheeks
As a million thoughts raced through my mind 
I NEVER felt so…LOW before
A little part of my spirit….
          DiEd
How could anyone…much less my GRANDMA
Be so heartless and mean?
Did she REALLY not know
That her very words stung worse than a thousand bees?
I sat for awhile trapped in my thoughts
Feelings of worthlessness took over my heart
Up until this phone call
I had found a purpose in my poetic art

Then suddenly I picked up a pen
Wiped a final tear from my eye
Although my grandma’s words hurt
I wasn’t going to allow her to completely kill me inside
So I did the only thing I knew to do
I confided in my BEST FRIEND, I poured out my heart and soul on paper because let’s face it
My poetry is the ONLY ONE that will be here in the end!

I will NEVER forget the conversation
That almost caused the poet within me to die
Because that very same conversation
Reminded THIS poet WHY she’s ALIVE!!

©Poe, 2013

☆NEVER allow ANYONE to stomp on your dreams!!! Live and love….. and LOVE what you LIVE!!!! ☆  ~Poe

© Poet4Life/Poe
(unless otherwise noted)

Why does it hurt
So deep inside my heart?
Why do I feel
As though I’m falling apart?
I KNOW we’re not “together”
(Although I do wish it to be…)
This ache, this pain you cause me
Can you even see?!?
What if I told you
That I cried last night?!?
Once again you said you’d be here
And again in anticipation, my heart took flight 
I don’t understand why it is
That I care for you so
Do you even care for me?!?
The answer to this I just don’t know
You’re brother and sister
Tell me that you care
That you’re scared of these feelings
So you act like they’re not there
But Mr. C, I must ask
What is it exactly you’re afraid of?!?
Are you worried I might end up like her…. your EX…?!?
Or are you simply afraid you might actually fall in LOVE…??
Mr. C, I’m asking that you
Just give me a chance
Let me show you how a woman treats a man 
Let me love you like you deserve, show you some pure romance
Mr. C, I can’t go on like this
I can’t keep denying my heart, can’t you see?!?
I know you’re afraid of getting hurt again
But I’m NOT HER… I’m ME!
I vow to NEVER hurt you
I promise to NEVER cause you pain
If you give me a chance, Mr. C
I assure you will NEVER stand in the rain
I understand the “complications”
You have three beautiful daughters almost grown
Isn’t it obvious that I care for them too??
Or is my concern and love going unknown…?!? 
Mr. C, I’m asking that you TRUST ME
Trust that these feelings I have for you are TRUE 
I would LOVE to be yours for the rest of time
Mr. C….. I would LOVE to forever belong to YOU!!!

©Poe, 2013

{PoeT’s Note: I truly wish I could tell Mr. C these things….show him these words…. but I’m deathly afraid it might ruin the FRIENDSHIP we currently have……  :-\  } 

© Poet4Life/Poe
(unless otherwise noted)

I want a love that is eternal and everlasting
A love that will outlive Father Time
A love that is RICH in inspiration 
A love that encourages my very rhymes
I yearn for a love
Like my grandparents had
Through sickness and health
Through the good times and bad
I am searching for a love
Where ‘forever’ isn’t just a WORD
And after you say “I DO”
There are no regrets afterward
I pray for a love that is real
A love that encourages me to feel secure
A love in which I KNOW
That NO MATTER WHAT we *will* endure
I desire a love that doesn’t lie
A love that continually grows
I pray for my heart to have wisdom
Shall I discover such a love, I pray I’ll know 
I am yearning for a love
That will see me through my pain 
A love that is unpredictable 
A love that’s both CrAzY and sane
I long for a love that is patient
During times when life gets  tough
A love that will forever feel
That MY LOVE is exactly ENOUGH
I dream of an unknown love
A love that doesn’t see DIVORCE as a solution
A love that is willing to go the extra mile
A love that exists out of pure devotion
I want a love that is eternal and everlasting
A love that will outlive Father Time
A love that is RICH in inspiration 
A love that encourages my very rhymes

I search and search for such a love
But I search to no avail
Now I sit here beginning to wonder 
Could such a perfect love even be REAL..?!?

©Poe, 2013

© Poet4Life/Poe
(unless otherwise noted)

Run, run, run
As fast as you can
You can’t catch ME!
I’m the town’s TWEAKER man!
The only way to catch me
Is to catch me up when I’m coming down
Otherwise I’ll do circles around you
Make your brain go round and round 
But, my dear,
I give you fair warning
By the time you catch up to me
I will have your feet & heart racing!
Woo you, schmooze you,
Entice you, I shall!!  Hehehehe……
I will hold you within my grasp
Oh dear, by then you will be BEGGING to come with me
For the chase, oh yes, the chase
It will wear your soul down
For it is defeat you will finally admit
But not until I’ve drug you clear across town
For in the beginning of this manhunt
You see, my dear, you wanted me dead
Oh but now I have you trapped
And NOW I will forever be in your head
You will be on this chase
For the rest of your life
Because I will have you CONVINCED
That without ME, you cannot survive….

© Poe, 2013

{ALL works,.unless otherwise stated, are property/copyright of Poet4Life (aka Poe)…. Thank you.}

© Poe

♡ Mr. C… ♡

Can you see the pain
That is in my heart?
Is it obvious to you
That I am falling apart?
When I am around you
My stomach fills with butterflies 
A smile crosses my face
You bring a sparkle to my eyes
You don’t want a girlfriend
That is what you say
I pray that soon you change your mind
When you ask to be mine… I anxiously await that day
I dream of the very moment
In which your lips meet mine
Oh that will be a moment
That I shall forever freeze in time
Everyone sees it
The chemistry between you and me
The deep and pure feelings I have for you
Why can’t you allow your heart to see?
You know I like you, I KNOW you like me
So why can’t you admit it?
I have one more question…
Mr. C… why can’t you take a chance and commit…??

{ALL works,.unless otherwise stated, are property/copyright of Poet4Life (aka Poe)…. Thank you.}

© Poe

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YEP!!!!  I FINALLY got my copy of the latest anthology in the mail!!!  

On pages 222-23, you will find my poem, “IN HONOR OF FRIENDSHIP”, which I wrote back in March 2012 to honor my dearest friend, Ms Lady K!!!  I am soooo grateful that I was invited to contribute to this anthology!!  It means a LOT to me to be able to pay PROPER tribute to and to be able to honor someone who has deeply impacted my life and to say THANK YOU to Lady K for believing in my writing….and in ME!!!!

When I bought MY copy of the book, I ALSO bought Ms Lady K a copy!!   =}   Well, K came by to pick it up last night and I REALLY got the feeling that she SINCERELY appreciated it!!  It felt so good to give K a copy of the book that her poem is in!!

♥♥♥♥♥

{ALL works,.unless otherwise stated, are property/copyright of Poet4Life (aka Poe)…. Thank you.}

© Poe

Thank You, Jesus
For the abuse that I have endured
So that I may be able to help others
Forever in Your name
Thank You, Jesus
For the pain I have lived through
So that I may live a life
Of appreciation and selflessness
Thank You, Jesus
For showing me my weaknesses
So that I may realize
My need to have You live in my heart
Forevermore
Thank You, Jesus
For loving me unconditionally
Although I am extremely unworthy
So that I may finally KNOW
The power and strength of TRUE love
Thank You, Jesus
For forgiving me COMPLETELY
So that I can learn to FORGIVE
Those who have caused me tears
Thank You, Jesus
For judging me PURELY by the contents of my heart
So that I can focus on my relationship with You
Rather than my outward appearance
Thank You, Jesus
For dying on the cross for ME So that my sins are forever forgiven
And that I may KNOW the depth and beauty
Of Your unconditional love for me

Thank You, Jesus!!!

© Poe, 2013

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{ALL works,.unless otherwise stated, are property/copyright of Poet4Life (aka Poe)…. Thank you.}

© Poe

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